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I’m so afraid. Now I could really feel that you’re so far away from me, that I could do nothing to reach you. I feel like you’re slowly fading away, that you’re far gone and there’s nothing I could do. I feel so helpless. I feel so vulnerable. I feel so weak. I feel all the emotions I’ve felt when you left. I’m back to square one. You’re now gone and I can’t seem to accept that. I thought I was happy but I finally realized that I was just fooling myself into thinking that everything was okay. I’m not happy and now I could see that. You’ve left me all alone and I’m in despair. Maybe I could write a song out of this ..
--- 4 weeks ago --- ---Last night, I thought about how I’m so over him but then I had a dream about him and how much I miss him and that we were talking and how we were so happy so I started missing him all over again :(
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Today was such a fun, great, memorable day! Nothing really big happened but this was probably the best and happiest day of my life ever since, you know ;) LOL I went to Valley College today for one reason .. to get my transcript - so I could finally mail my transcripts to CSUN. Today was also the first day of winter session so I thought, why not crash classes. I tried crashing in to Philosophy 1. It’s a really interesting class. One of the questions the teacher asked was “Why is there something rather than nothing?” Another question was “Would you rather live with the truth or live in a fantasy?” (something like that) Haha, thought-provoking :) LOVE IT! lol and theeen, break time! Time to add people in the class. Wrote my name down and time to pick names from the magic plastic bag hahaha I was just spacing out and to my surprise, the teacher called out my name. Yaaaay I got in! :) but there was this poor guy I overheard saying, “Man, now I have to wait for another year to transfer.” So as he was leaving the class, I rushed in to him and said, “Hey, you want the class?” and I just gave him my spot. I know that people might think I’m stupid but I have no regrets! I’m happy I could help another person who really needed it. Besides, I have that class for Spring anyway so I’ll think of this as a sneak peek of what’s to come. It made me so happy that I made another person, a complete stranger, happy :)
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